Dear Mr. Buck, Hello, my name is Sam and I am a transgender teen. I just watched your “It Gets Better” video and you said we could talk to you… Well I have no support it feels like, I hate being misunderstood and no one really even tries to understand anymore. I see there are all these kids finding support in their communities but when I look around all I see are churches telling me that I’m wrong and disgusting. I can’t go to my father who is a “God fearing” minister and strong believer of so. I can’t go to my step-mom who is the same way. I tried to go to my friends but they can’t seem to understand. School is no help at all because I’m living in xxx in the heart of the bible belt and everyone here is “God’s way or the highway”. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I hate this body that I am in… It doesn’t match my heart, or my mind and it’s killing me. I have cut before and I don’t want to spiral down that low again. I’ve contemplated suicide everyday for three years now and I don’t like the person I’m becoming… Please, give me some advice?
Hi Sam
Sam please don’t even think of killing yourself, that is what those who are making you feel this way want! Your a person who is normal in how you feel. If it wasn’t normal than why do so many of us feel this way? Those people who are doing that are the ones who are not normal and full of hate. It sucks when you don’t have a support group, I understand because I did not have one either, But I made it to become the person I wanted to and you can too. You have lots of things to live for. When you realize that things will change. Pay no attention to that crap.
Cutting sucks and I can relate as you know. But stop now. You have to focus on making yourself happy. I am very familiar with XXX . It’s not just there it is everywhere, so you need to just learn to love yourself and try to not let those people take you down.
Keep your head held high my friend things will get better with time. If it possible to find some other to talk to maybe in a FTM support group online.
Stay strong and stay in touch with me so I can see how your doing because I care about you.
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Dear Buck Angel
I am a 20 year old guy who moved to the U.S. 3 months ago. I lost my virginity when I hit puberty at 12. I lost it to my best friend who is a boy and had a 7 years relationship with him. I left him 2 years ago because I am afraid to tell my strict religious parents that I might be gay. currently I haven’t had sex with a guy or girl for the past 2 years and am going crazy. The country that I come from bans homosexuality and the law says that all homosexuals must go to prison to turn them straight. Sometimes I think of committing a suicide. I never had sex with a girl.
You think I should come out to my parents or should I discover myself if am gay, bi or heterosexual who had a homosexual experience ?
Regards,
Hi,
Thank you for your mail. I am so sorry that you have to deal with this. Many people have to because for some reason society tells us that being different is wrong or being LGBT is wrong. Well I am telling you that they are wrong. You are totally fine. Please do not feel like killing yourself. It is not the way to deal with this. You must seek out some professional help in your area. I am not sure if you now live in the USA but if so there are lots of great org. for you. Please watch my It Gets Better video for some info on those. Just remember that you are OK and that you should love yourself and be strong and know this. Find peace with yourself first and then you will know how to deal with your parents.
WOOF! Buck Angel® Pioneering Filmmaker, Speaker, and Advocate
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This came to me today,I thought I would share,Many people are hurting in this world- “I have to admit that I haven’t watched any of your films because I am a recovering porn addict and I try to stay away for those type of films now, however I like your courage. You don’t let other people get under your skin and you’re not afraid to express yourself in your own way. You stand up for what you believe in. I’ve seen some of the horrible things people say to you on this site and I can’t help but feel sorry for them. Unlike you, they probably don’t like themselves very much. The fact that you are so proud of who you are is just so inspiring. I feel bad that you were picked on growing up. I would have been your friend if I had grown up with you. But the fact that you attempted to kill yourself strikes a sensitive cord with me. I also attempted suicide (for different reasons) a few years ago. I was in an abusive relationship with a girl. She cheated on me, put me down, threatened me, and physically harmed me all the time. She even stabbed me in my hand on one occasion. I know I should have left her before things got as bad as they did but she had this way of getting in my head and making me feel like everything was all my fault. One day I locked myself in the bathroom and started downing different meds for the medicine cabinet. 2 Bottles of cough medicine, 1 bottle of tylenol, and alot of other pills that I can’t remember the exact names of. I didn’t care. I was crying the whole time. I just couldn’t understand why someone who said they loved me would treat me so bad. I layed down on the bathroom floor where I thought I would die and just waited to be taken away from this world. Luckily the combination of meds had a very bad reaction to my system and I involuntarily most of the stuff up. From that day on I took on a different outlook on life. I’ve since left that abusive girl and have settled with a beautiful girl, whom I have a beautiful son with. What I’m getting at is if I had seen your video on how life gets better, I probably wouldn’t have attempted suicide. When I watch that video now and I see and hear the real emotions in your eyes and voice I know that your a real survivor and in my opinion, that is far more effective than any PSA that is shown on t.v. Thank you so much for putting your message out there. Thank you for helping others see that it is okay to be who you really are. It makes you a hero in my eyes.”
It Gets Better!
I made this video as part of a project that Dan Savage is doing to reach out to our GBLTQ youth. So many suicides happening! Why?? This is NOT OK!! We all need to reach out and be part of this. They need us. And like Dan says these schools are not going to ask us, Or someone like me to come speak and tell my story are they..So we must use the power of the internet!
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