Dear Buck Angel,
    I recently watched your It Gets Better video and you said that people could email you so I decided to. I apologize in advance if this letter is wordy and awkward. I haven’t had anybody to reach out to so I’m going to try to tell someone my story.
    In recent weeks, I’ve been very unsure of my gender. It started with some friends joking around about what would happen if I were a girl and now I can’t stop thinking about it. I’ve had thoughts like this and cross-dressed in private since I was about nine or ten. I’m fifteen now and it’s starting to tear me apart. It’s like there are two sides of me and the boy and the girl in me are arguing with each other constantly. It makes concentrating hard and I’ve spent more time crying in the past couple weeks than I have in years.
    I am afraid.
    I am so afraid.
    I’m afraid to lose friends.
    I’m afraid of what my family will think.
    I’m afraid of what will happen.
    I am so afraid.
    I just don’t know what to do and right now it feels really good to be able to tell someone this at this moment. If you read this I thank you very much from the bottom of my heart. You are a huge role model to me and I am so glad I have someone like you to look up to.
            Best Wishes, Sam

Hi Sam,

Thank you for your email. I know it must be super hard to be dealing with this at your age. I know because I did as well and it sucks. Also people just do not seem to understand us at all. So do not feel singled out there are many like you.

Please do not be afraid. I think if it is possible that you can find a counselor at school who you think might be friendly to this conversation they could at least point you to a place to get some therapy. You need to talk to someone about this so you know that it is ok to feel this way. You are very normal trust me. If your friends are really your friends then they will understand.

I am not sure how your parents are with you but if you feel close enough and trust them enough to discuss wanting to go to an LGBT counselor that would be a great start for you. Try to find a LGBT community center near where you are.

Remember you are not alone. That is why I made that video so you can know that it is ok and that I do not want someone like yourself to go through the pain I did. But I did survive and there is hope. So start with what I said above and take it one day at a time. You must learn to love yourself and know that you are an important part of the world.

I care about you my friend so stay in touch with me so I can see how your doing.

Stay strong and be proud!

Buck Angel

It Gets Better Video

Q. Hey man I need to ask a question as a trans-man who has a total disconnect with his vagina how do you deal with it? Does it bother you? Do you love it? I’m not being judgmental,you just seem to be very pro-vag and I want to understand how you deal with it. My girl wants to touch it and penetrate it but I can’t handle it. I just want to rip it out of my body some days.

A.Hey buddy-I am pro loving your body and whatever that means for you. I had to learn to love my vag because I knew that I was never going to get bottom surgery and I love sex so much that it was coming between me and having good sex. I do not expect every guy like myself to embrace the vag like I do. I am just putting it out there to show that it is possible.
Some trans guys say that I am anti-bottom surgery because I embrace my vag so much. This is so very far from the truth. I think you should do what you need to do to love yourself and I wish that a trans man who has had bottom surgery would step up to the plate like I have and show the world how proud he is of his penis!
Just take it slowly my friend and try to come to terms with why you dislike your vag so much. I think that will help.

WOOF!
Buck Angel

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IMPORTANT info for trans men who are long-term users of testosterone. Please pass this around.

Buck Angel’s Public Service Announcement to trans men on the importance of keeping your vagina healthy by using vaginal estrogen cream if you are a long-term user of testosterone.Learn more at http://FTMhealth.com

Amazing beautiful photos of trans women from Paris 1960s. Check out the whole article here..more photos

I had the pleasure of speaking at the University of Toronto April 2012. I spoke about my new documentary Sexing The Transman and how to deprogram yourself and live a more fulfilling life.
For more info my motivational speaking and how to book me please visit
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WOOF!

Buck

A Transgender Man Candidate Is Hoping to Make History-from the NY Times

These are just a few of the subjects that Mel Wymore, a candidate for City Council on the Upper West Side, brought up in an interview before addressing the elephant in the room: that, if elected, he would be the first transgender member of the Council.Read more

Hello, My name is Tom and I am a 25 year old man. I always have to seem like a tough guy. My family and friends expect this. I am a straight male but I do have an issue that makes me question my gender.

I really am embarrassed by this and I’m being very serious about this. While making love with my girlfriend in the bedroom I seem to let out extremely feminine attributes. I moan to my partner just as loud as she but in similar tones. As well as we both dominate each other. She always ends up on top there as well at end of lovemaking. It’s also always been my constant goal to satisfy my female partners fully. Even to the point that I am physically sad if I fail to do so during an act.

She has told me as well that I am a bigger tease than any woman she has ever known. I feel very much like a total equal to her always. I just don’t know if this is normal. I have always been kind of afraid that someone won’t accept me for this.

Hey Tom,

What a great email thank you so much for sharing this with me.

Why would you even question your gender? This has nothing to do with it. Just because you enjoy having sex and make loud noise when making love, well that just means you enjoy sex! I think it is so awesome that your girlfriend is so open and ok with you. Really that is all that matters.

Trust me your normal. It’s the people who try to make us always feel like we are not normal who are not normal! Because really what does that mean? The most important thing is that you learn to be ok with yourself and everything will come together after that.

One thing I have learned through my work is not everyone will like who you are or what you do, it’s just human nature. But if you love yourself and learn to just be who you are well then it all falls into place and life is amazing.

So go enjoy yourself because you sound like an awesome person to me:)

WOOF!!
Buck Angel®
Pioneering Filmmaker, Speaker, and Advocate